I'm not the one I was meant to be All this seclusion and solitude buried deep in my being So give me some kindness to clear my blinded eyes A fucking cloudy mirror, staring back at existence Surrounded by confusion in this ocean of affliction I just want to see I'm sick all the time In this endless pace Expiring reliance That tears up my lungs In flooded spaces Heavy, acidic words showing what's in the crate As I look into the abyss, praying for less cinder days Dissipating my body in this ivory city that God forgot So wash my feet and cover my exposed scars A fucking cloudy specter, staring back at existence Surrounded by confusion in this ocean of oblivion I just want to breathe I'm sick all the time In this endless pace Expiring reliance That tears up my lungs In flooded spaces Heavy and acidic words showing what's in the crate As I look into the abyss, praying for less cinder days Hateful thoughts start to fill the worst in me Showing all flaws I've got Until my conscience breaks I'm sick all the