Made a wish and let it float off in the wind It’s such a simple thing To find myself hoping again And I know, I know that I am afraid But it’s not of my pain It’s how I lost the sight in the beauty remaining in the day So I go on these arteries you call roads Oh, it’s such a simple need For my heart to feel safe and at home Yes, I know Yeah, I fucking know! That I am afraid But it’s not of my pain It’s how you look at me with fear In your stern gaze Have I not fought and survived? Just to be set apart from you? They taught me how to fear My own mind And I have to forgive them too? Oh God, what if I can’t make peace? Is this the weakness that you see? When I bled for you Who bled for me? But it wasn’t enough red it seems Ah! Look at me, I'm the trauma under your bed Told too angry for you men I violent in the head Now shush They shushed my sobs And muzzled me Told me I was A bad, bad thing Why do I have to be better than this? But if I wanna save myself I can’t Put more red on these hands! So I go to find myself some peace But not for you, for me I just wanna better home But you should know I won’t hurt myself again By treating you as you treated me then And I wish for you the same my friend And I know that I am afraid But I won’t again Put on my war paint! 'Cause I'm dealing with my pain And I wish for you the same Oh we both made too much red And it won’t make me less afraid But I won’t put on my war paint 'Cause hurting you don’t make it Easier on me (Go find yourself some peace)