I lie awake staring at the ceiling Nothing special tonight The room feels quiet, almost peaceful If I don't think too much And just letting the thoughts pass slowly Like they've done a thousand nights before I wake up tired, shake it off Tell myself I'm fine I say it like it still means something Like it hasn't lost its shine I don't say it out loud I don't make it a thing I learned how to stay quiet About everything I learned how to stay quiet I think I got used to feeling like this Used to feeling low I didn't fall, I didn't break I just learned to let it go I don't know when it started I don't know what I missed But somewhere along the way I think I got used to feeling like this Sadness comes like it knows me Always right on time It waits for me in silence Like it knows this life is mine I tried to ask for help once In ways you couldn't see I thought if I stayed long enough Someone would come to me I thought it would feel louder I thought someone would ask But nothing really happened And I went right back I went right back I think I got used to feeling like this Used to feeling low I didn't fall, I didn't break I just learned to let it go I don't know when it started I don't know what I missed But somewhere along the way I think I got used to feeling like this Sometimes I think disappearing Would be my only work of art Not to be remembered Just not this tired heart Maybe someday I'll stop feeling tired Even after sleep But right now every morning Feels like a repeat I think I got used to feeling like this Like this is how it is Like being here and breathing Is all there really is I don't know when it started I don't know what I missed But if this is who I am now I think I got used to feeling like this Just letting the thoughts pass slowly Like they've done a thousand nights before