We were only fourteen Wild, wide eyes Pledging our virtues between holy crimes We'd drink ourselves naked Swallowing the shame Stirring in the silence Tangling our brains I never meant To lose You were my best friend I'd rip off the label And bury down the pain Washing my hands till the skin split the stain Repeating the mantra in mirrors But knowing that for no one Had my heart beat dearer I never meant To lose You were my best friend Best friend All of these years spent Avoiding guilty eyes Was I the one that muddied your mind? Now I'm snorting cocaine And bleeding out the truth Oh, how I loved you I said oh, how I loved you Oh, how I loved you And oh, how I still do