I can’t be fun to be around when I'm not there I hit fast forward Can’t remember where I’ve been since fireworks across the street And when I try it’s supermarket lights you held me by the freezer And then nothing till your doormat slipping underneath my feet When I push harder something stops me like a forcefield like a membrane Like two north poles like two train doors closing freezer food inside But I can see you through the window telling me or telling my brain It’s not broken it’s my body telling me to run and hide But it is not me there it’s someone wearing my hair Telling you I'm okay and I’ll be back soon But I'm not even anywhere it’s so fucking unfair They’ve done this and they still sleep in our room When there’s nothing in my head but the screaming Got nothing left to dread but my leaving The tub fills with my blood hits the ceiling I won’t act but it’s all that I'm dreaming I can’t be anyone at all so let me skip to the next chapter Find connection next to true self something larger than my life Where fireworks can’t reach me and the supermarkets greet me Where potatoes make the faces smiling warmth from deep inside The deep freeze freezer you’ll see me there with my breathing regulated Compensated and forgiving for all injuries I find With my eye movement I’ll see you dent cans just to get the discount We can rewind and un-dent reprocess and desensitise But now it’s not me there it’s someone wearing my hair Telling you I'm okay and I’ll be back soon But I'm not even anywhere it’s so fucking unfair They’ve done this and they still sleep in our room When there’s nothing in my head but the screaming Got nothing left to dread but my leaving The tub fills with my blood hits the ceiling I won’t act but it’s all that I'm dreaming There’s nothing in my head but the screaming Got nothing left to dread but my leaving The tub fills with my blood hits the ceiling I won’t act but it’s all that I'm dreaming