Yuck! Came right out of nowhere Saw it from the corner of my eye And it's bigger than it was last time And fuck I don't wanna go there Just when I was starting to feel fine Now I'm gonna lose my mind Cause just one little thing makes me spiral Like dirty laundry stuck in a cycle I'm washing everything down Rinse it out of my mouth Scrub until I bleed out Bleed out, bleed out Look at what it cost me God, it's so exhausting I just want this off me, off me Will I ever feel clean Stuck on the kitchen counter Crying to my brother on the phone Saying: Michael, what if I die alone? Alone And I know it's irrational fear How do I always end up here Somehow I always take it there Cause just one little thing makes me spiral Like dirty laundry stuck in a cycle I'm washing everything down Rinse it out of my mouth Scrub until I bleed out Bleed out, bleed out Look at what it cost me God, it's so exhausting I just want this off me, off me Will I ever Jump in the water Get to the bottom Fixing the problem Jump in the water Get to the bottom Fixing the problem But it doesn't help That I go through hell Just trying to solve em I'm washing everything down Rinse it out of my mouth Scrub until I bleed out Bleed out, bleed out Look at what it cost me God, it's so exhausting I just want this off me, off me Will I ever feel clean Ah, ah, ah, ah Ah, ah, ah, ah Ah ,ah, oh will I ever feel clean Clean Ah, ah, ah, ah Ah, ah, ah, ah Ah, ah, oh will I ever feel clean