I've got so much on my mind I have to get it off my chest Have to open up my mouth and speak the truth I let the little words out right But leave the biggest stone unturned It's like I'm trying to keep the light from taking root But I'm never gonna' clean this slate At the rate I'm going Have to dig in to find the strength To follow through I've shown forgiving myself is something I can't do So I'll leave it up, leave it up to you I'll leave it up to you ' Cause if it were up to me To pull myself out of this place A failure's what I'd be without your grace ' Cause it's never gonna' wash me clean This muddy water Your river is the only thing To make me new I've shown forgiving myself is something I can't do So I'll leave it up, leave it up to you I'll leave it up to you... The God of a million second chances ' Cause the chances are That I'll return and take the wheel A million times or more