I melt your words into thoughts and worries swallow my tongue in a sigh Salty taste uh My eyes shut, so give me courage to lead through this stormy night This last night of the year brought tears and weary eyes And oh the things I do to myself Oh like I'm punishing someone else When all I do is keep losing myself I ran through the city in the blistering cold followed by the neon lights Run run faster! Should have known there's no escape from your ghosts on a new years night This last sigh of the year No fireworks in sight And oh the things I do to myself Oh like I'm acting as someone else When all I do is keep bruising myself This is the last night of this sorry lie this is the last night of this second life You need to grow and learn to love what you've earned Oh the things I do to myself Oh I keep blaming everyone else When all I do is keep fooling myself