I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind I tried to run, I tried to hide But they still come back every night Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind And I don't even wanna sleep in my bed now (yeah) Most days in my head now Kinda feel I been lost and I'm checked out Keep it real, I been livin' on the edge now I admit it, I've attracted to my own hell On my back, but I won't bail And I hated where I'm at, but I won't dwell (yeah) I just hope that I go back to my old self Wish you knew what I seen, but I won't tell And she go first, I been tryna find me on a soul search (what?) Lost things that I love, but it don't hurt (what?) Tryna therapy shit, but it don't work (no) Hopin' I can find me with my own worth But I know I gotta let my soul decide Think about peace when I close my eyes Only I can save me from my own demise I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind I tried to run, I tried to hide But they still come back every night Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind Yeah Know you wonder how I'm rich, but I'm still lost Lot of wounds that I'm still scarred Money never mean shit when you so broke God seems so close, but He so far Only thing is my kids that I live for Kinda wonder why the fuck I got rich for Have you ever seen an angel with a pitchfork? Ever wonder why you ever got picked for? Only shot five times, but I miss four So you go first, I've been tryna find me on a soul search Lost things that I love, but it don't hurt All this therapy shit really don't work See I need self-love and my own words But I know I gotta let my soul decide Think about peace when I close my eyes Only I can save me from my own demise I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind I tried to run, I tried to hide But they still come back every night Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters Ooh-ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind And I know that nobody's perfect I look at myself, don't know who this person is Mount the eagles, a whole different version of me When the real me is closin' the curtains And tryna make changes, I hope that it's worth it I'm haunted by trauma, I'm holdin' the sermon The monster inside of my soul is emergin' This song is my therapy, hope this is worth it If you can relate, I hope you can escape Anything that's a tunnel that you couldn't face It go stare in the mirror, go look you in the face I be prayin' for you if you losin' your faith Hope you heal from the shit that got you in your way If you feel like you trapped, then you losin' your way Just know that somebody like you who can say We our worst enemy and we two of the same I see these monsters all the time They show me bad things in my mind I tried to run, I tried to hide But they still come back every night