Abby planned her wedding in her science notebook during class And John would be in the Olympics, 'cause no one else could run that fast And Hailey was the smartest, so her dad bought her a Harvard shirt But I wasn't makin' plans like they were I was tryin' just to make it through another day, another fight 'Cause why would I have thought ahead if I was always gonna die? I pushed away my friends and sister Missed my prom 'cause I just figured I'd never see another side And now I'm here and changed my mind, but I don't know how to live Now that I wanna be alive 'Cause I never really saw me Livin' past twenty-five (twenty-five) I was busy hidin' and changin' who I was to fit See if anyone would buy it 'cause God knows that I never did Growin' up took a long time, but the rest of life is longer And the second I made it mine, it stopped gettin' harder, but I don't know how to live Now that I wanna be alive 'Cause I never really saw me Livin' past twenty-five (twenty-five) I can see a world where candles on a cake are not a countdown The friends I make will stick around I'll look at my face and actually feel proud Watch my sister's kids get older Fall in love, let my heart break No matter where I'm gonna go I know I'm not goin' away, but I don't know how to live Now that I wanna be alive 'Cause I never really saw me Livin' past twenty-five Twenty-five