Sorry No! The year I learned to tie my own shoes Was the same year I learned I could take my own life Was the same year My sister said she wished she was pretty That's when I felt The wicked in the closet come alive The next year I learned to shave it Was the year I held the blade In the bathroom, cut my knuckles off Too scared to do the other thing And the year they taught us grace Was the year I lost my faith I was praying for a friend to help me Bury all the secrets in the grave In my mom's old house Found the evil hand-me-down It's in the basement, it was waiting for me Screaming: Take me home I tried it on Felt so good in my arms Till it didn't, thread the ribbon There's no place like home I'm not alone here, am I? I was learning how to multiply nines With my fingers Around the same time I was ready To fly, I would listen to Madonna On my mom's old stereo, rewind, pause and repeat Until I got the words right Then I heard her crying in the hallway We graded papers all night And I love her Think I'll stay here longer Her darkness looks just like mine In my mom's old house Found the evil hand-me-down It's in the basement, it was waiting for me Screaming: Take me home I tried it on Felt so good in my arms Till it didn't, thread the ribbon There's no place like home I'm not alone here, am I? I'm not alone here, am I?