This December is colder Than your shoulder It's only been five months, but I feel ten years older I'll always miss you, but I'll never let you know it Heart weighed down with you But you won't have to hold it Loving me will always be some kind of death But loving you more means loving me less I pray to anything that will listen Let me lay this to rest I already loved us to death I held your edges Hoping they'd make me bleed But your apathy seems to be All that you need You won't admit fault for all of these bodies But hey, baby, at least you're fun at parties You looked at me like an inconvenience But I looked at you like a downfall You're leaving me in ruins Stop putting me through this Will I make it out of here It's a close call Loving me will always be some kind of death But loving you more means loving me less I pray to anything that will listen Let me lay this to rest I already loved us to death The only thing I'll never ask you is to stop The only girl you wanted is everyone that I'm not I wanted desire so fierce, it felt violent Can you feel my name in your mouth when it's silent And you're such a pretty liar But I'm getting pretty tired Of pretending this was more than a bad decision So here's my last admission I hope you're happy but I know that you're not And you're my favorite contradiction Loving me will always be some kind of death And loving you will always be an honest mess I pray to anything that will listen Let me lay this to rest I already loved us to death