Saturday I was losing sleep Thinking about the way you held me on New Year’s Eve Like you wanted me for the first time In a long time I had closed my eyes for so long Cause I’d rather live a lie than be alone But I felt lonelier with you than I’ve ever been Oh, in this portrait of the end I'm kissing someone else outside a bar against my car Oh, maybe it’s too soon But I don’t wanna think of you Just wanna be touched till you feel far You’d be lying if you said you tried, ooh I’ve heard that I should find someone Who loves me more than I love them But all I want is what I can’t have Spent years chasing after you Falling in love with potential Like I always do But I know now people never change Oh, I'm going out like every night Just to get you off my mind Cause I miss our life Oh, and when I think of what that means It’s not that I want everything But the good parts still make me cry And you’d be lying if you said you tried, oh And you’d be lying if you said you tried, oh You said you did the best you could It never felt like much but now it’s good Cause I don’t have to say we’re alright And I don’t have to lie, I know I tried I don’t have to lie, I know I tried