Yeah When I'm alone I think about the time we spent together I fall to pieces when thinking he probably treats you better Our love was different, so it's hard to set the tone You living out in California I've been stuck inside a different weather I often wonder if you thought that I deserved you Too late to say it, but you know I'd never hurt you And now I wonder if love is really a virtue You made me realize that I never really deserved you You taught me how to love Now it's something I don't believe in I thought you were the one But now I struggle through the seasons How can I be so in love with someone so misleading And how could you just throw away my heart without a reason So many things that I should get up off of my chest I just sit inside my room and reminiscing in my head Lately I been feeling like my soul has been a mess And all I really want's for you to love me like I'm dead Yo, last time I saw you was your back turned walking How many people got a leave fore' I see I'm the problem You'll finally find some better guy who isn't shy and awkward And I'll be here alone cause my fears are unconquered Tired of people breaking trust and saying that I'm not enough Why am I only okay when I'm off the blunt Feeling like I get my heart broke every single month Might just give it up, I don't even give a fuck Tired of this feeling, got it every single minute My mind like a vinyl cause it's skipping while it's spinning Popping painkillers but I think I finally get it I'm only killing myself yeah the meds won't fix it But, that's just the way that I cope And honestly, I'm just wishing that they leave me alone Lift the pen like a shovel, just wanna die in a hole Cause these midnight thoughts got me feeling dead and cold