Take a drive or one-way flight to Japan Lay in bed, lay in bed not giving a damn Order in, talk some shit on the phone with a friend If I wanted, I could Call a guy that I met last night at the bar Couple drinks, make him think that he's got a shot Chase a thrill, try to feel some way that I'm not If I wanted, I could All this freedom, all this time I wish I liked getting high I don't talk to Jesus, but I think he understands Why I had to leave him to go find out who I am Don't know myself 'cause I'm a shell of the girl I was before I don't eat, I don't pray, I don't love you anymore Now I throw all my clothes on your side of the bed Sold the 55 inch you just had to get Think about all the things that I should've said But I didn't, now I've got All this freedom, all this time Should we give it one more try? I don't talk to Jesus, but I think he understands Why I had to leave him to go find out who I am Don't know myself 'cause I'm a shell of the girl I was before I don't eat, I don't pray, I don't love you anymore Ooh Ooh Sometimes it's hard out here in the deep end I miss having something to believe in I don't talk to Jesus, but I think he understands Why I had to leave him to go find out who I am Don't know myself 'cause I'm a shell of the girl I was before I don't eat, I don't pray, I don't love you anymore