I've been hiding in this House for days Ignoring people's calls Trying to relax but feeling Strangled by these walls Too afraid to go outside But restless Staying in with the memories inside this Place That brick and sweat engine This house is very homey now And everything's kept Needs But I can't shake the Thoughts of when it wasn't Warm and sweet I tried my hardest to forget The liquor and the buckles But it all came back when Simon's blood was on my Knuckles Trapped in a cycle I can't Break I'm not who I want to be For my little brother sake Now I need to be set free How do I find shelter from The storm that I've become? Baby needs a Life that won't Force him to go numb How do I help keep him afloat? Now that I started sinking How can I look him in the Eyes with the hateful things I'm thinking? I have to Be more than all the pain That's Before And be who he needs me I do I'm afraid this violent Rage won't ever go Away I didn't mean to go that far I hope that he's okay Simon's never done a thing But tried to tell the truth And now I know it's all been Real Because I've seen the proof I convinced myself It was right That he deserved the pain And he only made it worse When he tried to explain That night Things Got out of hand He really could have died What if I've gone overboard? What if I had tried? Trapped in a cycle I can't break I'm not who I want to be For my little brother sake Now I need To be set free How do I find shelter from This storm that I've become? Jamie needs a life that won't Force him to go numb How do I help keep him afloat? Now that I started sinking How can I look him in the Eyes with the hateful things I'm thinking? I have to Be more than all the pain That's come before But I don't know Where to start I'm afraid I'll fall apart And he'll end up alone Or like me If I can't be who he needs Me to be