Seems I've been here once to often Shivering but not from cold Giving in as I become cancer But now you're screwing with my life Sharpen the knife, don't need your precious time Breaking balls over which of these thoughts are mine Try to convince me that this shit don't stink Emptyness in promises is bringing me to the brink I felt a fibre so alive now dead and corse And I survive just to flog some more dead whores What am I left with here now as this thing goes? Is this guilt or am I rushing from madness within? The realisation makes you sick, this cancer I know but can't see, this ok beats love Now I'm beaten by myself You have, a reason why Yet to, a reason why Give me, a reason why A reason why, you have A reason why, yet to A reason why, give me But now I stop, count, check myself, before I wreck it Because the longer that I'm staying here, the bigger the risk I'm taking Tell me, what am I left with here with now as this thing goes? The times alone where I feel blessed To wake and feel my heartbeat Not giving in, I won't become cancer I know but can't see, this ok beats love Now I'm beaten by myself A victim of mind rape I've become, become Guilty of deciet to myself, and everyone I love You don't understand what this is to go through, I've been through Can't even remember my name So black, you will never change So black, you will never change So black, you will never change So black, you will never change So black, you will never change So black, you will never change So black, you will never change So black, you will never change