I've been called soul boy I'm not They've been callin' soul boy Took another hit Scotty just caught him a body Fuck it, where the liq'? I'm gettin' drunk as shit Soon as I heard this year, I just start cryin', my eye keep watery I miss my kids, I bet they wonderin' where they father went Might not be a minute 'fore I get the hell to par with him Livin' in the ghetto, we were poor but we had fun That money got me strugglin', I don't remember none of this when I had none Right back at work, I'm in the closet tryna find my dad gun I don't know for sure but I just thought that I won't be last one We wildin' in juvenile, whole time I ain't even know I had a son He ain't told me about it I ain't even know He ain't told me about it Girl like her ain't out here wildin', why you ain't told me that I had a son? Now I'm lookin' back at shit I did like: Yeah, that was dumb (yeah, that was dumb) Some of the most stupidest stuff that a nigga did, it was off love She want my baby but I told her don't put his hands on that woman I tried to kill a nigga, got life for tryin' me and my big gun Me and E, we was just goin' 100 When E bought my boys, we playin' beef, now I'm up some doors Livin' in them bricks, he wasn't rich but I say I was spoiled 'Cause bein' a baby, I got away with shit when I ain't do chores Mama, I'm sorry for trippin' on Christmas 'cause I ain't even get no toy Now that I'm a man, I understand that life was really hard Droppin' bars, thinkin' about all my niggas behind them bars Nigga told on sight and he died on them bike, why niggas gettin' discharged? My future bright, it's just a lot of darkness in my heart I pray no smoke don't come my way 'cause I know I'm takin' way too far Ain't no forgivin', I need my vengeance, please forgive me, Lord That nigga keep beggin' for my attention, I'm sendin' him to you, God Mama, I need you to stop believin' everything you see on blogs Can't nobody say they know shit about me 'cause I be high way on Mars Ain't fuck in so long she wanna go to court, that bitch done called the law Say I'm doin' her wrong, I love my kids, feel like they took a spark If I could do it all over, I'd be more selfish with my fuckin' time Tryna bring niggas with me who ain't even wanna see me shine Damn