Reach for the handbrake now Pull it upward Turn the wheel hard In Danny's car drifting in the parking lot Midnight at the church How we'd float on in snowfall On ice sheets on the asphalt In circles turned, enclosing underneath And in the backseat, you and I Saw Calvary spinning after in the back of us Caught you in the glass Reflected by the streetlights as we passed I noticed the expressions didn't match Laughter on the one Contrasted sadness The look in your eyes Against your hands The ceiling and Your seatbelt off Dependent on your strength to anchor you So forceful was the curve Sent careening into me first When Danny sideways crashed into the curb That's the first thing that came back the day I heard And we would push a little further every time Breaking into buildings overnight when we got bored Bent on cheating death Turned left on every red The cars ahead slamming on the brakes We found purpose in laughing after danger A curse we shouted out Shot a gun inside the house once Leaned over the edge of the rooftop My belt held in the back Seven stories up to write my name You carved Die Young with a pen In the skin below your neck To keep your recklessness closer to the chest A reminder to reject A perpetual hanging threat A promise you kept now True to yourself To the end In a sense I suspect you always felt that way No exceptions for the time you spent in ours And in mine And you drifted far away from us in time Out of mind Out of sight What else is there to say now but goodbye? And the last time I saw you After years we spent apart You came to my apartment just to talk Dressed in a suit Said your life had gotten better Even then I wasn't sure it was the truth When Danny called to tell me I didn't know how you had been About the benchmarks you'd met in your life The counterweights to tip Keep equal weight on either side The anguish of existing unrequested And the joy to be alive And I know now the truth That a lie is one too That some things unsaid Really aren't in the end Chief of my regrets? When he told me how you'd died I'm ashamed I felt surprised By your own hand at night Fired once and survived And then somehow again I saw Calvary behind you in the light Scattered your reflection in the doctrine And I almost believed We would enter in elected when we died Carried by the you and the I in the TULIP despite how hard we tried Both our names circled twice You and I would get ushered triumphant Into heaven and the light And you reached to find the brake Nothing there to pull To be pulled back with grace From the way you chose to bring yourself relief Backwards Forwards On the ice Circles spinning helpless at the edge There again You and I What else is there to say now but goodbye?