Aspartame isn’t the same as real sugar Drinking Diet Coke never made me sweeter at all Just smaller than I was before Thought that if I were less of myself, maybe he would want me more But then the other day I was on the internet I read that aspartame might be a carcinogen Am I at higher risk of cancer than all of my friends? I'll change my body and my hobbies Switch from regular to diet Used to wonder if being skinny would be worth it if I could die from it But then I found out being loved and being small feel synonymous So I don’t know If I could do it all again Would I still drink Diet Coke? Nothing feels as good as water on an empty stomach Chewing sugar-free gum to try and curb my hunger All my friends tell me I'm more than just “some stupid number” But nothing will taste as good as being small for summer I'll change my body and my hobbies Switch from regular to diet Used to wonder if being skinny would be worth it if I could die from it But then I found out being loved and being small feel synonymous So I don’t know If I could do it all again Would I still drink Diet Coke? The only thing I ate today Was a Tylenol to cure the sweetener headache And if everything has side effects Starving myself for confidence feels like a fair trade I'll change my body and my hobbies Switch from regular to diet Used to wonder if being skinny would be worth it if I could die from it But then I found out being loved and being small feel synonymous So I guess I already know If I could do it all again If I could do it all again If I could do it all again I would still drink Diet Coke Oh, I just like the way it tastes Every t-shirt that I own is two sizes too big Don't want anyone to know I have a body But even if I started wearing clothes that actually fit My skin is so tight, I can't breathe comfortably So it stretches so thin it breaks And that leaves little lines that are both angry and sad And I am embarrassed and ashamed Of the red and purple stretch marks that litter my entire lower half So I try to make myself look as small as I feel I hunch my shoulders and avert my eyes And pray to God that somebody can see the appeal Of a person whose only pretty on the inside