My dad told me he hoped that he lived long enough To see me happy again I didn't know what to say to that So all I said back was: Yeah, me too I wanna smile without hesitations Laugh without any reservations Say I'm fine and mean it I wanna be happy like I know I should be I'm sorry truly my sadness makes you sad too And since I can't happy for me I wanna be happy for you People tell me I look happier It feels like a lie Maybe I'm just better at hiding it now Or maybe this is what healing feels like Maybe all that it is is not knowing what it is Until you do it I was hurting so bad for so long And then I wasn't before I knew it And there was no graduation day No clear finish line Just me working at healing my hurting And wondering if I'll be method acting for the rest of my life People tell me I look happier And now I think I do too Either that or I'm a damned good actor Cause even I've got myself fooled At some point, I stopped having to pretend to be fine I don't know when it happened But somewhere method acting turned into real life And there was no graduation day I don't know and I don't care when I passed the finish line Because healing is learning that healing from hurting Was only a matter of time It was only a matter of It was only a matter of It was only a matter of It was only a matter of It was only a matter of