Almost pierced my nose In the bathroom out of spite 'Cause I had to move back home And my mom and I were in a fight But I just couldn't Guess I'm not that wild And I don't wanna stay Her least favorite only child Almost crashed my car Into a light pole just to say I did it I don't wanna die I just want people to think I could've So the next time that they see me They'll hold me a little tighter And think about how sad it'd be if I wasn't alive anymore And I know that it's probably selfish And I shouldn't think like that So what if I do it for attention? Would that really be so bad? 'Cause I'm not gonna do it Just gonna think about it a lot And I'm not a danger to myself or others I know it's what it sounds like but I swеar I'm not I just wanna feel different than what I've fеlt before And I don't wanna be my mom's least favorite only child anymore Almost ran away I packed my car and took the keys Just to see if I disappeared Would anyone even look for me? I cut and dyed my hair to try to feel like someone new But I couldn't escape myself No matter how badly I wanted to And I know that it's probably selfish And I shouldn't think like that So what if I do it for attention? Would that really be so bad? 'Cause I'm not gonna do it Just gonna think about it a lot And I'm not a danger to myself or others I know it's what it sounds like but I swеar I'm not I just wanna feel different than what I've fеlt before And I don't wanna be my mom's least favorite only child anymore And I know that it's probably selfish And I shouldn't think like that So what if I do it for attention? Does that really make me bad? 'Cause I'm not gonna do it Just gonna think about it a lot And I'm not a danger to myself or others I know it's what it sounds like but I swеar I'm not I just wanna feel different than what I've fеlt before And I don't wanna be my mom's least favorite only child anymore And I know I should be kinder to my body and my mind And things are gonna get better if I just give myself more time I've got the rest of my life to feel different than I do And being my mom's least favorite only child must mean That I'm her favorite too