I mean, it had been going on and building up for so many years That I was, you know, suicidal I mean, I just didn't wanna live So I just thought if I'm gonna die If I'm gonna kill myself, I should take some drugs, you know? I remember when you used to hold me close and say you love me Now you actin' like a ghost and that's okay, I know I'm ugly Now I'm swervin' in the ghost and I'm okay I'm gettin' money Now I'm switchin' up the coast, get out my way I stop for nothin' Give me some time and give me your patience Came in the game last one month, fuck the game, I'm done Give me a sign and I'm gunna take it Whatever way I want Bitch, I get paid up front I'm gettin' mine, so fuck all your placements Baby face, I'm done Fuck the place I'm from Don't hit my line and say somethin' basic If it ain't about the money Please don't waste no time Lookin' out the edge, and I'm picturin' the fall 'cause I don't want to break my legs and have to carry on If I carry on I'm gon' need some marijuana Put it in my bong, then I make another song May as well become a junkie 'Cause I felt like a junkie every day, you know You know, waking up starving Forcing myself to eat, you know, barfing it back up I'm in pain all the time