I used to wonder what this would be like if I let it go All of this time that I spent, what would happen if I had to go? I'm haunted by my mistakes, I wanted to be the greatest Falling head first into the end of all my life Let the show go on up until I die This is all I know, why would I not try? But it feels too much out of space in my mind, yeah I'm out of space in my mind now Where I come from, grew up around violence, ptsd, I can still hear the sirens Didn't have much so I made my own world, it was too much noise, so the music my silence If you got the same, try to do what I did, try to have dreams, just close your eyelids Don't let 'em take you off that path cause regrets way worse than letting them laugh And I'm always running from all my sins Hate how it slows me down when nothings letting me win My hearts been cold for too long and way too many days In the darkness, in the grave, man, sometimes wish I could change Throw my hands up, say I'm done with falling And I'm just throwing up all the ashes There's way too much inside of my head And I'm just throwing up all the ashes There's way too much inside of my head I used to wonder what this would be like if I let it go All of this time that I spent, what would happen if I had to go? I'm haunted by my mistakes, I wanted to be the greatest Falling head first into the end of all my life Let the show go on up until I die This is all I know, why would I not try? But it feels too much out of space in my mind, yeah I'm out of space in my mind now