I shiver and shake through warm and cold I'm alone On my own In every mistake I dig this hole through my skin And bones It's harder starting over Than never to have changed With blackbirds following me I'm digging out my grave They close in, swallowing me The pain, it comes in waves I'm getting back what I gave I sweat through the sheet as daylight fades As I waste Away It traps me inside mistakes I made That's the price I pay It's harder starting over Than never to have changed With blackbirds following me I'm digging out my grave They close in, swallowing me The pain, it comes in waves I'm getting back what I gave I drop to the floor like I did before Stop watching, I'm coughing, I can't be more What I want and what I need are a constant war Like a well full of poison, a rotten core The blood goes thin, the fever stings And I shake from the hell that the habits bring Lay the sick ones down thhe bells will ring Put pennies on their eyes, let the dead men sing Blackbirds following me I'm digging out my grave They close in, swallowing me The pain, it comes in waves I'm getting back what I gave I'm getting back what I gave