I'm feelin' good first time in a long time A lot of thoughts in my mind, not the scary kind I used to fear senior year would've been my prime But I never graduated, yes, I turned out fine Searching for something that I need to find 'Cause I think about dying all the time Life's fucking hard, but I'm tryin' all the time Damn, I'm on the edge, God's calling from the other line But every time I pick up, I only hear the Devil I don't give a damn, I don't wanna settle I just wanna live a good life, die a good man Like the bad motherfucker I am I won't deny it, I been living my life, not a fuck given Can't deny it, you can say what you want, but that's my decision Can't deny it, I been living my life, not a fuck given Can't deny it, I'ma be a bad motherfucker till the, till the day I stop kickin' Stop kickin', y'all Never had a family, but I had friends If we're talking real life, I guess, that all depends I was thinking more racial and moniker Daydreams of living in Santa Monica All I ever knew of family was television 'Cause mine was doing hard drugs and locked up in prison I guess, that's why I never made the same decision I haven't spoken to my mom in years, I heard she found religion I'm just playing life like Atari I was never perfect, I'm fucked up, I'm sorry, I'm human My childhood was fucked and it's loomin' over me Every time I think about it, I know I shouldn't be here where I stand I just wanna live a good life, die a good man Like the bad motherfucker I am I won't deny it, I been living my life, not a fuck given Can't deny it, you can say what you want, but that's my decision Can't deny it, I been living my life, not a fuck given Can't deny it, I'ma be a bad motherfucker till the, till the day I stop kickin'