Holding on to who I was before Before I lost you I'm holding on to who I was before Before I lost you Scared of being honest with myself Tired of always blaming someone else And I've been smoking like I don't care 'bout my health 'Cause either way, life ain't fair, so fuck it, might as well Lately, I've been looking back instead of forward Getting lost inside a photo We were laughing in the Rover Now I can't help but look around to find a reason Overdose on dopamine Waiting for a double meaning Yeah, lately, I've been Holding on to who I was before Before I lost you I'm holding on to who I was before Before I lost you (La nuit dernière j'ai rêvé d'elle) (On était à la plage le coucher de soleil) I left my heart in a place that I can't go back to I dyed my hair rose pink to feel like I have you I don't wanna know what it means to let go, but I do Yeah, I left my heart in a place that I can't go back to Lately, I've been catching Z's and counting zeros Hard to be in the mirror Try my best to see it clear, but I can't help it Getting lost in memories I'm overdosing reveries I feel closer when I'm dreaming Lately, I've been Holding on to who I was before Before I lost you I'm holding on to who I was before Before I lost you I try, but not enough Can't keep my guard up Unravel, spiral, I come undone But if I close my eyes, I'm holding onto you, you, you Holding on to who I was before (holding on, I'm holding onto who I was) Before I lost you (holding on, I'm holding onto you) I'm holding on to who I was before (holding on, I'm holding onto who I was) Before I lost you (holding on, I'm holding onto you) Oh (Holding on, I'm holding onto who I was) Oh (Holding on, I'm holding onto you) Oh, oh