My friends left me to die There's purple under my eyes My raw meat is creepy as fuck There blood and flies over us The book you told me to read It wasn't really interesting I wonder if there's a message for me I shouldn't miss this at all but I do Cause lately the news isn't so so good I don't wanna die I'm trying to survive But sometimes I'm too scared I can't tell them why Cause eating isn't enough And baby I'm not an addicted But just can't help it But the lonely nights The cold nights The champagne The neon lights I'm moving on But sometimes I want it all again The highlights The movie nights The drunk talk The easy life I hate it but I appreciate it Cause lately the news isn't so, so good My boyfriend's worry about me He thinks I'm not being sincere Cause everything when it's cold I feel like throwing up I miss going out with my friends Going to markets and staying up late And and drinking a lot alcohol Even tho for me it wasn't enough I shouldn't miss this at all but I do Cause lately the news isn't so so good I don't wanna die I'm trying to survive But sometimes I'm too brave I can't even tell you why Cause eating is not enough And maybe I'm an addict But I just can't help it Ooh The crying nights The lonely nights The I don't have any friends and I wanna die I'm moving on but sometimes It haunts me all again The monsters inside my head The summer that never came I hate it I hate it