I've been running circles 'round the same old fears Tracing patterns that I've drawn for years I want the light but hide behind the shade I want the truth but flinch at what it says Every time I get a little close to right I pull the rug and blame the night It's not the world that knocks me down Half the time, it's me coming back around I make self-inflicted storms, I know Lightning from the places I won't let go I'm the reason I trip on my own feet Building walls and calling them retreat I see the finish line but turn away Wrecking what I wanted anyway I'm both the wound and the knife that forms These self-inflicted storms I know my flaws like they're written on my skin Old confessions that I circle back again I sabotage the things I ache to keep Lose my grip the moment love gets deep I turn soft whispers into hurricane winds And claim it's fate when I cave in And everyone says healing's in my hands But I keep folding all my plans I make self-inflicted storms, I know Lightning from the places I won't let go I'm the reason I trip on my own feet Building walls and calling them retreat I see the finish line but turn away Wrecking what I wanted anyway I'm both the wound and the knife that forms These self-inflicted storms Maybe someday I'll trust the Sun Stop running from the good I've won Maybe I'll stop treating hope like crime And quit rewriting endings all the time But until then, darling, hold my hand I break myself more than you'll understand I make self-inflicted storms, it's true Rain I summon every time I'm close to something new I'm the architect of my own collapse Drawing treasure maps that lead me back But maybe one day I'll survive the way I push the best of me away 'Cause I'm both the wound and the knife that forms These self-inflicted storms But I'm learning how to brave the swarm (Self-inflicted storms) (Self-inflicted storms) (Self-inflicted storms)