I am made of silence and intensity Of music that pulses in the dark Of light that pierces through the soul What hurts the most is not the pain itself But the absence of a witness to it I've been a bridge for so many But no one was a harbor for me I helped people find their way And got lost on my own I feel alone Not for lack of people But 'cause no one seems to see The fullness of who I am But I just want to scream Yet my scream today is silence I just want the hammock, the breeze, the sky And Christ breathing here with me I want the light in the dark Not the crowd in the brightness If someone could really see me I just wish they'd see my worth Not what I fix, not what I give But who I am When no one's watching God I still feel like a failing son But I keep coming back to the same arms 'Cause even when I see myself as broken Only Your embrace Keeps me whole I don't want to scream My scream today is silence I just want the hammock, the breeze, the sky And Christ breathing here with me I want the light in the dark I want peace Your peace