I told myself I'm fine Even when I couldn't breathe at night I smiled for the world to see While I was breaking quietly I kept pretending I was strong Said it's nothing when it felt so wrong And every mirror showed a lie But I just kept my head held high I thought if I ignored the pain It would fade like a passing rain But it stayed, it grew inside And I'm so tired of trying to hide I tried to be okay I tried to push it all away But the shadows follow wherever I go And the cracks keep starting to show I tried to make them believe I tried, but I'm still not free And I don't know how to say That I'm not okay I filled my days with empty noise So I wouldn't hear my own voice Told my friends I just need space When I was lost in a darker place I laughed at jokes I didn't feel Convinced myself it wasn't real But when the night would close in tight The silence screamed louder than my fight I thought if I could hide my tears They'd forget about my fears But they stayed, they carved their name In the corners of my brain I tried to be okay I tried to push it all away But the shadows follow wherever I go And the cracks keep starting to show I tried to make them believe I tried, but I'm still not free And I don't know how to say That I'm not okay Maybe one day I'll stop pretending Maybe one day the pain will be ending But right now I'm stuck in this fight Saying I'm fine when it's a lie I tried to be okay I tried to push it all away But the shadows follow wherever I go And the cracks keep starting to show I tried to make them believe I tried, but I'm still not free And I don't know how to say That I'm not okay I tried to be okay (to be okay) I tried to push it all away But the shadows follow wherever I go And the cracks keep starting to show I tried, but I'm breaking inside And I can't keep living this lie So here's the truth I can't deny I tried