I see your name light up my phone And my heart still skips, but I feel unknown We’ve been through fire, we’ve been through rain And somehow we’re still here in the same pain Every memory feels so near But I'm afraid of what I’d hear If I opened the door again Would I lose myself like then? I thought time would wash you away (away) But you’re the tide that still pulls at my veins (veins) And I'm caught between what’s right and what’s true ‘Cause I still think of you I wish I wanted you Without the weight, without the wounds I wish I wanted you Like the first night under the Moon But all the hurt still lingers deep And my heart’s too tired to leap I wish I wanted you The way I used to Your voice is soft, like it used to be And it whispers promises to me But I can’t forget the nights we broke On words we should’ve never spoke We could pretend it’s not too late Rewrite the past, change our fate But every scar reminds me why We said goodbye I thought time would wash you away (away, hum) But you’re the tide that still pulls at my veins (veins, hum) And I'm caught between what’s right and what’s true ‘Cause I still dream of you I wish I wanted you Without the weight, without the wounds I wish I wanted you Like the first night under the Moon But all the hurt still lingers deep And my heart’s too tired to leap I wish I wanted you The way I used to If love was enough to fix the past We’d still be here, we’d make it last But I can’t lie, not to you, not to me Sometimes letting go is the only way to be free I wish I wanted you (wanted you) Without the pain, without the truth (the truth) I wish I wanted you But I’ve learned what love can’t undo And though my heart still beats your name I know we can’t be the same I wish I wanted you But I don’t anymore I wish I wanted you The way I used to