(I found a different way to live) My job is tough You can see right through it to the roots It’s rough And you can feel the weight I bear From the bitter moods of those who should care They want a fight Look at this, it’s a gout Just one drop of tears for dreams I never shout It burns like a spotlight (I made a cake without sugar) Even though I liked it They said the dough was wrong It wasn’t right But even if it wasn’t good I kept on baking in my neighborhood Kept it tight And when they finally find me out I’ll be ready to step out Without the weight Sometimes I ask What if I give up? Then what do I do? But what if I go on? Then what will I prove? And I keep asking What if I mess up? What if I lose? If it all ends, what will I choose? But I know that one day this will all end And I will do what I want Without their judgment closing in And I know when this is done It might feel strange But I’ll feel free again And I knew I would feel glad When the worst had passed And I stopped walking around the hole I also knew that when I stopped being sad From all the things I had to let go I would begin again Only now learning how to live Learning how to live (It's gonna work out, right?) I thought it would be easy But maybe I'm too far down Raising myself too high I'm no prophet But I won’t drown in my own storm I’ll be fine I have to be strong I’ve waited too long for the change to come Just a dim light shines Sometimes I ask What if I give up? Then what do I do? But what if I go on? Then what will I prove? And I keep asking What if I mess up? What if I lose? If it all ends, what will I choose? But I know that one day this will all end And I will do what I want Without their judgment closing in And I know when this is done It might feel strange But I’ll feel free again And I knew I would feel glad When the worst had passed And I stopped walking around the hole I also knew that when I stopped being sad From all the things I had to let go I would begin again Maybe this is wrong (Maybe I am wrong) But I don’t care (But this, I do care) Even if I wait all night (Even if I cry all night) Even if it turns to a nightmare (Even if I fall into fear) I know I can be strong (I will be strong) Even if it breaks like glass (I'll carry the shards) But I know that one day this will all end And I will do what I want Without their judgment closing in (Now knowing how to live) And I know when this is done It might feel strange But I’ll feel free again (Only now learning how to live) And I knew I would feel glad When the worst had passed And I stopped walking around the hole (Now knowing how to live) I also knew that when I stopped being sad From all the things I had to let go I would begin again Only now learning how to live Learning how to live Now I'm learning how to live Learning how to live How to live