I've been going out almost every night I've been drinking everything I can get my hands on I pretend I have fun And do you remember the nights I called you up? I was so fucked up, I forgot we were broken up I still love you, you stupid fuck But you don't look at me, you don't talk to me And I know it's 'cause you're weak, baby You feel guilty, it's pathetic, mm And everyone says to me "Missy, you're so strong" But what if I don't wanna be? And everyone says to me "Missy, how do you stand?" There's so much you don't see I was getting swept into emptiness I was taking time, I was practicing living with regret Something you're so good at At the end of the night, I am walking home I pretend that I was wet, wanting them No means please stop, I need to be alone And everyone says to me Missy, you're so strong But what if I don't wanna be? And everyone says to me Missy, how do you stand? There's so much you don't see I push you down, I drink to drown, I am alone I push you down, I drink to drown, I am alone I push you down (Everyone gather 'round) I drink to drown (I have the answer now) I am alone (I have the answer now) I push you down (Everyone gather 'round) I drink to drown (I have the answer now) I am alone (I have the answer now)