I left my room today Heart in my hand, you turned away Eyes wide, breath held You stared like I was something else You drew the line I crossed it once, you made it mine You dressed in noise But I heard the hate behind your voice I reached, you flinched I spoke, you winced I gave you light, you dimmed it twice I bled, you stared I hoped, you never cared I opened up Built me up Why do you look like love from far But up close, you burn like a dying star? I walked your streets, you shut the doors Why do you shine for everyone else But turn to shadow when I yell? I screamed your name, you stayed stone still You call it strength But it just kills I was a fool, I see it now I tried to fit, but don’t know how You gave me rules, you changed the game Then laughed and told me I'm to blame I called you light, you showed me dark You led me blindly through the spark I built a bridge, you burned it fast You said: Move on, then cursed my past I wore a smile you wouldn’t see I broke myself to make you free I sang your name like it meant peace You turned around and called police I chased your wind, I played your part You broke my hands and called it art You told me: Dream, then stole my sleep You taught me silence runs too deep You dressed in gold, but spoke in stone And left me stranded on my own Still I believed, I tried, I cried And all you did was watch me die Seatbelt on but nothing's tight Pressure rising, losing light Windows shake, the engines cry No one speaks, we just ask why Clouds below and fear above Prayers whispered out to gods we shoved Oxygen masks drop like shame Feels like I'm the one to blame Let it fall, let the sky break I’d rather crash than be that fake Don’t bring me back, don’t dig me out That ghost is gone without a doubt If this is how the story ends Then let it burn, don’t just pretend I’d rather break than be reborn So let this be my final flight I’ve fought too long to fake it right I won’t return to hollow skin To live for them is not to win Smoke in the sky (smoke in the sky) No sign of calm (no sign of calm) Words like knives inside my palm He wore truth like second skin But every word was soaked in sin He’s a liar (he’s a liar) He’s on fire (he’s on fire) Spits out curses like a preacher’s choir He’s a witch (he’s a witch) Twists every marker So light the match Let’s go get darker (let’s go get darker)