At the clinic wondering what your face would be like Mascara bleeding to my eyes Tied like a dog on a chain with a midlife crisis and an ex husband Sneaking a Marlboro Ultra Light I stole from a nurse out there in the alley Halfway home is where the heart is and I'm halfway home White trash, trailer trash, they said you'd always be it And you said, 'one day you'll see. ' But lately you start to wonder if they were right Spit on you at school outside In the locker room and bathroom too Locked you in the stall Bless this mess, can I bum a light? The cars out on the LA Freeway They look like red and light Christmas lights strung out on a chain The ex virgin Mary of 49th street has a pocket full of pills She sold herself for synthetic heroin And sleeping with a man about twice her age Really though it was anything but sleeping Nice neighbors, bad cough No health insurance this year, transitional neighborhood Gentrification comes like it always does And some nice condos they go in But the needles in the alley they're still laying there Don't go barefoot or take a nap out there Wear shoes if you have um Undercover methadone clinic Children close your eyes Say a lullaby and think of a nursery rhyme Or maybe something your mama used to tell you When you were trying to sleep Jill fell down when the bow breaks oh the cradle will fall Down will come baby, down will come baby, down will come baby Put out the cigarette Just make a decision Lydia, just make a decision It's yours Close your eyes and make a wish Hear the whisper of God He used to talk like you, you used to see his face in the clouds Now I see your face in my mind It's wrong for him to want it Bless this mess, brush your hair Fix yourself up real nice you've got a show tonight Singing down at the Broken Bottle, half waiting shifts Get the guys a couple of beers Go on get the food, living off tips and meth Then I came home after dancin' one night And I wrecked my car and you have to take the bus now So you've got a long walk to think about it A long walk to the station A long life ahead to live with yourself So think about it Lydia Think about it Lydia Think about it Lydia