I can let go of the flower, now my power has returned I can look back at the past, now I see what I have learned Try my best to act my age, but the child won't behave She wants to scream and cry and rage And who am I to take her grave? The teenage years I never lived The innocence of high school kids Young romance and endless nights Of carefree joy and pure delight Didn't grow up in a normal world And now I'm just an adult girl Now I'm too old to die young, but at least I had some fun Spent my twenties on the run dreamin' of suicide and love Think I'm stuck somewhere between childhood and va-va-voom Always cycling in-between existential dread and doom Messy numb razors and knives Missed arteries and blacked-out nights Kittens, mittens, plushy toys Bows and hearts and sullen boys Robbed me of a teenage world Now I'm just an adult girl An adult girl Someone, tell me how to heal the terror livin' inside me I don't even know what's real, I just know I wanna be free All the things I lost and loved Swept them underneath the rug Like the child, I wait and hope You might repair the things you broke Now I understand the world of adult boys 'cause I'm an adult girl I'm an oyster without a pearl But that's just how it is for an adult girl An adult girl Adult girl