Since I was little, I felt something I couldn't explain Repressed desires that made me cry in pain They always told me loving a boy was wrong Hiding magazines, keeping secrets too long I asked myself: Why did God make me so wrong? As a child, I went to church with my mom Thinking that would be a safe space for me But I was wrong (yeah, I was so wrong) I was a different child through the church's eyes Delicate ways, soft voice, and gentle vibes To those people, I was just another little gay boy, they'd say So I had to start hiding right away Watch my hands, walk like a man, don't act that way Speak deeper, change my posture You must become a real man someday I tried to change who I was Followed what the church folks said I must And by the end of the day I'd cry, I'd feel ashamed So many abuses that I faced My mind was breaking, I was afraid I prayed to God for forgiveness For something I had no control over The pain I felt was like no other Only God knows how hard I tried to change How many nights I cried in silent pain Thinking that I was wrong When all along I just needed to let go And tell them all to fuck off I always felt I was living a lie Broken inside, with no love in sight In a place that kept trying to erase me In a faith that only suffocated me But sadly, I couldn't leave It was a daily fight An inner war I didn't need I hid myself, trying to be someone else When in truth, I never had to prove Anything to anyone (screw you all) Today, I'm stronger than I thought I'd be I'm freer than I ever believed I found real love Discovered my worth And now I live Without fear of Being who I truly am (a gay man) As an adult, I started to preach Saw young boys with tears on their cheeks One came to me asking for a prayer And I felt God's love in the truth he shared When I held him, I could feel his pain But in that moment, only love remained I saw that God is love, not hate That day, my eyes opened wide I started accepting myself inside It was a daily journey, a healing path He showed me I didn't need to hold the wrath I left the church, said no more to suppression And finally found peace and self-expression Now I live free No more hiding me I met an amazing man who helped me grow (I love you, babe) The journey was hard, but I made it through Now I'm happy No more shame Thank you, God, for your healing and truth Hey you, don't hide, don't live in the dark There's a greater love that lights your heart One that won't judge, that loves you as you are We are His children, each a shining star Don't bow to words of repression Refuse to be another sad statistic Life's meant to be lived with full acceptance I am stronger than the chains they tried to bind Freer than the judgment they left behind I found love, I found the truth within And now I live in peace, without fear I have my family My husband, my joy is real And God still loves me Thank you, Lord, for everything I feel