You don't call me anymore You just say you're busy I see you laughing weird in the world But you don't make time for me You walk past everything I gave like it was nothing at all I gave you my whole life You can't give me one call I'm still your father, why do I feel erased? Yeah, I had flaws Yeah, I got loud But I never once walked out After I'm gone, you'll feel this pain Every ignore, text, every misname When the wood hits dirt and the crowd goes home You finally understand what it means to be alone You'll say you love me, you'll cry on cue But love shows up Why didn't you? I was here I was breathing, you just stopped believing And I was sick, you didn't know, and I was weak You didn't show, you never asked if I was okay You never missed me enough to stay I waited for you, you never came Now I'm just a fading name I told myself you'd come around, but hope gets quiet without a sound After I'm gone, you'll wish you tried You'll replay nights you let me cry, you'll stand there shaking Hands in regret, wishing you could undo what you chose to forget You'll say you love me Maybe you did, but love isn't words, it's what you'll give Jesus forgives, I hope he does, because one day you'll answer for us And he'll ask you simple and plain, why you never came? After I'm gone, don't tell the crowd You were proud, don't post my picture, don't say my name If you couldn't show up while I felt the pain And I was here, I was alive You just thought I had more time After I'm gone, you'll finally see You didn't lose me, you abandoned me My hands bled just for you, I work until they shook I missed my own dreams so you could chase the ones you took I stood outside in the cold so you could sleep in worm light I swallowed every fear just to keep you all right No I sit alone in a house I build for us You pass my name in silence like I'm someone you don't trust You left me here waiting You don't even try Yeah, I made mistakes I wasn't easy to love But I never stopeed showing up I never gave up After I'm gone, when the wood hits dirt When the sound of goodbye finally starts to hurt You'll wish you came You wish you stayed, you replay every call you never made You say you love me, you swear you cared But love shows up and you weren't there I was here, I was alive You just thought I had more time When I fell down, you never found me When I needed you, you weren't around me I watched your life move on so fast, while I was stuck inside the past I kept the porch light on at night I told myself you make it right, but hope gets tired And so do I, you left me behind and called it a lie, you didn't mean to hurt me That's what you say, but not meaning to, still hurts this way After I'm gone Standing by my grave you'll cry for the time, you never gave You'll touch that stone, you'll say my name But it won't answer, it won't answer, it won't be the same You'll beg for one more chance to call Silence won't answer, it all, Jesus forgives, I tried it through But even he knows, love has to move One day you'll stand before him alone And he'll ask you why you never came home After I'm gone, when the dirt falls down When they lowered me slow into the ground That's when you'll feel what you denied, I was still here But you left me slide, I was your father, I needed you Not your money, just something true After I'm gone, the grave will stay longer than I ever did Waiting for you that way