And when I talk to my friends And find out that you're having fun That you're swallowing life That you're in the Sun That you're fucking around That you're growing a new one I bellow out my voice I yell out loud I have my shirt off in front of a crowd I tell them about you and how you're gone You're gone But am I lying? Don't I have you in my mind the entire time? Yes I can leave all the places we went But I can't leave without the bones you bent So I hobble along And now it's me who's gone And now it's me who has your fear of opening hearts And all the false starts We could tear hope apart with This deep gouging And biting back With the way that you get all My friends in the sack What's left? I scream when I look up at the night Where the novelty has worn off of moonlight What gives? And I roll on the ground Who cares? And there's no answering sound And there's nobody around And there my answer was found