Don't crash before I calculate A step before the fall Don't speak what I should say Don't stay when I'm called Exit when it feels like fate Make distance look polite Then I swear it wasn't planned I'll lock myself in tonight I don't need another mirror I know the face I use I don't feel anything at all I don't see anything at all When I pulled the pin I did it out of fear I say: Give me a minute When I mean give me a wall I wait for the right moment Then I miss the call I expect people to stay Without letting them in Then I wonder why it hurts When it ends like this I don't need another mirror I know the face I use I don't feel anything at all I don't see anything at all When I pulled the pin I did it out of fear I don't feel anything at all I don't see anything at all If you saw what I've seen I'm sure you'd do it with a tear I know I know I know what I do I don't need saving I needed time I needed space I weaponized I learned restraint Too well, too young Now nothing stays When it's begun I don't feel anything at all I don't see anything at all When I pulled the pin I did it out of fear I don't feel anything at all I don't see anything at all If you saw what I've seen I'm sure you'd do it with a tear