Left myself on the island Didn’t even try to fight it Now I wake up blue Pull out my hair and pick on you Handle me with care Left my mind in a dark place I can’t correct my mistakes Now I wake up red Never speak the words Telling me in my head that I deserved it I can’t ignore all of the signs I’ve had this feeling before And I can’t take back all of the times I’ve taken the blame when it wasn’t mine, no it wasn’t mine Need something else, need something else ‘Cause what I'm breathing in is toxic I tell myself, I tell myself That it’s everything that I wanted Everything I wanted Everything I wanted Lost myself in the city Trying to make myself busy Saw through myself right into the crowd ’Cause I needed help Should’ve asked around I can’t ignore all of the signs I’ve had this feeling before And I can’t take back all of the times I’ve taken the blame when it wasn’t mine, no it wasn’t mine Need something else, need something else ‘Cause what I'm breathing in is toxic I tell myself, I tell myself That it’s everything that I wanted Everything I wanted Everything I wanted I tell myself I tell myself I tell myself I tell myself I tell myself I tell myself That it’s everything that I wanted