I killed myself, neck with a deep cut Blood dripping onto the cold floor Honesty was the reason Infidelity was my retreat, hope Why did I take revenge in the best way Being the devil himself I felt helpless, insecure I hold on to stubborn things Why did I think you were my future? Scared people are a ticking time bomb And I pretended and hid mine To live the best of our love Rock bottom, destructive fear And I wanted to hate myself Why did I think horrible things about myself I was a shoulder you leaned on, but you made it up to me in a merciless way I hid because of you I was the prey the whole time and you laughed in a nasty way Hands covered in blood Blood which was mine for a long time Be happy, you don't need to help me I want you to carry this guilt In your heart of stone Which I tried to cut, but the stone was already rotten And I guarantee that we won't find each other Why will I be cold and you will be hot Hands covered in blood Made from the pointed dagger Why did I make my death painful for everyone Don't think you're exclusive Why Your hands are covered in my blood