It was the beginning of February I was almost recovered But when the news came out My mind automatically Goes back to his hands on my waist And my world falls apart again Drinking wine became torturous It wouldn't matter when I'm my own enemy But let's face it, wine gave me life Now it seems that everything I believed in has sunk But they often say that I hurt him But damn it, the ship was sinking He jumped first, I just didn't die Like some people wanted me to Call me horrible, but don't say I fired the first shot There are two wounds in this relationship Mine is the deepest Now, when a door slams shut I only remember his outbursts He used to say I shouldn't worry But when I was dying alone He came to ask for my help Forever and ever, I'll live with marks Maybe they won't feel what I felt But there are ways to kill someone One of them is not loving them enough But they often say I hurt him But damn it, the ship was sinking He jumped first, I just didn't die Like some people wanted me to do Call me horrible, but don't say I fired the first shot There are two wounds in this relationship Mine is the deepest The brightness at the beginning turned to darkness at the end Central Park was my refuge But when I remember that's where I first saw you I die and he lives longer But they often say I hurt him But damn it, the ship was sinking He jumped first, I just didn't die Like some people wanted me to do Call me horrible, but don't say I fired the first shot There are two wounds in this relationship Mine is the deepest