He once told me that If I was on his side I was safe But at the first moment He shot me in the back And my spine screamed I see spirals in my white mind The birds sing a melody I know all too well It's time for my final judgment Probably everyone who loves me will be there They'll see me cry and scream Because all my mistakes are unforgivable Why did I trust him with all my soul? Why did I give him my wings to take care of? Why did I let him penetrate my mind? I sat where great men once sat Some abused, others killed And what did I do? What could I have done to be where they were? Perhaps I gave my life, my heart And, for a brief moment, I had a damn hope The moment I knew how long I'd be in the cage My eyes went white for something I couldn't see I beg forgiveness from everyone I've ever hurt You're no match for the people who hurt me After all, it's you Why did I trust them knowing that everything was falling apart? Why does everything I touch turn to ash? Why, when everything was on fire, were they still standing? My mother used to say when I was a little dreamer That lives are like doors Because when one door close, another open Now my life had closed the door Who would have the courage to open another one? When I'm still cold on an autopsy table Why did I give them my life? Why do I still feel pain in the end? Why am I crying over all this shit? I've learned that when one door close, another open I've lived through it, maybe I'll be happy In the end, in the end, in the end You know you've hurt someone When you're still okay and the other person is at rock bottom Maybe, in the end, I'm the traitor in this story