Beneath a perfect sky The sun begins to fade I cover up my eyes So nothing seems so grey After the rain I thought that I Could face another day But in the depth of my denial I feel the brightness stray Reflection in the blade The face of my self hate I gently lift the sleeves I try to find my veins Just one small cut It's all I really need To feel the blood run cold It sets my mind free I'm on my knees I pray Don't let this be a sin on my head To gain eternal rest We can't persist in this dismay I damn the de-ja-vus of life And wish myself to sleep If all I wanted was a blade Would I be cursed unto this loathsome place? The dawn beams down Radiant and bright I can't face you now So leave me here to fall I think of your face My life's only joy Tears roll down your cheek You're standing all alone Rain falls all around There's a hole in the ground The tombstone lays blank You can't remember my face Regret consumes me We can't leave it like this After the rain I thought that I Could face myself again But my reflection bares a side that Still brings me to shame Rest from pain I want to die Cut my wrists Let them bleed Searching for something But don't know why I keep trying Wasting away without a sign Disguise a silent fate You'll throw the blame on everyone But its just destiny Wash my sins Away with blood Red the hue Of my demise You never tried to see my view You never wanted to see I never wanted to be you Why can't you just let me be? Wasted all my time On hating it's draining You whisper so you can blame us When we haven't heard I'm getting so cold I'm nearing the end I can't turn back now I have made my choice