Panic shoots throughout my veins Color draining from my face Memories consume my brain Then fill my skull with toxic waste Spirit's crushed under the weight Of my ever-growing shame Trying to hold onto faith But somehow it always escapes Words are always left unsaid Swarming 'round inside my head Chose to swallow them instead And let them writhe beneath my breast Fake a smile for the press While my insides tear to shreds Staring in the camera's lens Before I go Virginia Tech I grit my teeth till they crack When your gums run laps Writing checks they can't cash You're wearing wounds that don't last Temporary scabs And the ink's on your hands When you look at the mess you've made Are you proud to say your display is on point? Afraid to let go And lose the one excuse you have When your path disappoints You've locked yourself in Tied the restraints Resort to nothing less than null points And you can't help but think about The world that you miss When you're not that voice Oh how I've wished It wouldn't come to this But I'm desperate To kill your innocence Even if it Means peeling back my skin I'm your emotion exhibitionist Now take a glimpse At what makes us different And don't resist I'll try to make it quick From leg to wrist You will never win this trauma competition I apologize I guess I never recognized Shame on me for thinking You could ever sympathize But I've identified All the holes between the lines Struggling to keep the words inside the leather's binds I never wanted this to happen I didn't plan on veering off the course before the end And I never wanted this to happen But here I am experiencing turbulence again I swear I never wanted this to happen I didn't plan on veering off the course before the end And I never wanted this to happen But here I am experiencing turbulence again Dancing on the knife's edge Singing with a tight chest Laughing off your last breath Live as if there's no life left Cut yourself Swallow shells Let me help Come on over Cheap motels Foul smells Drop your belt Hell is closer Now that you're mine Take a ride on the traumacoaster Now that you're mine Take a ride on the traumacoaster Now that you're mine Take a ride on the traumacoaster Now that you're mine Take a ride on the traumacoaster Dancing on the knife's edge Singing with a tight chest Laughing off your last breath Live as if you're dead