I've been through none since the last time I saw you Haven't reached out 'cause I'm not supposed to Cut the ties, I've been nice like I promised But I still stalk your friends if I'm honest I drew that line, about a hundred times But boy, you've got this hold on me It's forever a misery You know I want me a cup of coffee, babe 'Cause God, if I ever saw your face I'd fall back, I'd relapse 'Cause I know I can't handle that I'd still wear the jacket that you left If we ever try to be friends again I'd fall back, I'd relapse I'd run right back to what we had What we had I was up when you called after midnight 4am on New York and I'm thinking right Guess you somehow could feel I was healing Didn't call but I know you were hoping To bring me in And it's so tempting But boy, you've got this hold on me It's forever a misery You know I want me a cup of coffee, babe 'Cause God, if I ever saw your face I'd fall back, I'd relapse 'Cause I know I can't handle that I'd still wear the jacket that you left If we ever try to be friends again I'd fall back, I'd relapse I'd run right back to what we had What we had What we had I used to like to be doing fine When it makes me wanna lose my mind Say it's casual, it's such a lie I tell myself you're just a guy But you like to not care at all I'm not talking, makes me wish you could But what we had I'm doing right back, run right back And I know I want me a cup of coffee, babe 'Cause God, if I ever saw your face I'd fall back, I'd relapse 'Cause I know I can't handle that I'd still wear the jacket that you left If we ever try to be friends again I'd fall back, I'd relapse I'd run right back to what we had What we had