Self destruct barely alive I've lost the meaning of life As we laid my brother to rest Wish I was there for your last breath I wish it was me instead Put the barrel straight to my head Still see your face at night Can't get it out my fucking head It's getting so much worse I lost what I didn't deserve For the rest of my life I watch you burn Push it all in the back of my mind I lost the meaning of life As we laid my brother to rest Wish I was there for your last breath