It's been a while since I last cried I drown out the thoughts of suicide With chemicals and lots of pills I guess its still cheaper than a hospital bill But now I feel so numb and empty I woudn't care if the world was ending I have goals and pacific coast dreams I also have low self esteem Socrates and the apostles creed And everything else that I've ever believed Is it all a sham Is it all a lie? I admit I'm afraid to die Alone Alone I don't want to die alone Alone Alone I don't want to die on my own I just wanna tour around the world And matter the most to just one girl But I dont think that I ever will Everything moves fast but I stand still Now I am so numb and empty I wouldn't care if the world was ending I've got problems with no remedies I've also got self destructive tendencies I'm a fucking loser and I dont talk to girls And I've never had a teenage romance unfurl I listen to the beach boys in the darkness of my room And I make my own music in the hopes of getting you With me With me In holy matrimony With me With me I am so lonely